KEEP THE FAITH

201210

2010-12-20T01:06:00.001+08:00

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151210

2010-12-15T00:19:00.000+08:00

Remember your best years are ahead of you, enjoy yourself and Happy birthday! Being 17 is really awesome, I hope you cherish and enjoy each day of your life.

You're better than who you think you are, dont think any less of yourself. Im sure many people in your life met you by accident, but they stayed on purpose. And Im definitely one of them, Happy 17th!

071210

2010-12-07T22:26:00.001+08:00

"Sometimes", said Pooh, "the smallest things take up the most room in your heart."

091110

2010-11-09T17:23:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, someone told me the truth about things.

I was too stubborn to listen or even open my eyes to look at things at that point of time.

You might not understand what Im saying right now, but just know, Im really sorry ):

Choose to be happy yeah (:

2010-07-06T20:41:00.000+08:00

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smile

2010-06-16T22:57:00.002+08:00

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Its been quite some time, but I still hope you'll be happy. (:

130109

2010-01-13T00:38:00.004+08:00

Its been 2 days after results day, havent really congratulate you for your good results (heard from Zo, hope you dont mind). Ah whereas mine is extremely disappointing. Subjects that I have done the most didnt reach my expectations, straight b3 for all 6 subj. Only one A1 in my slip, which makes an ugly result slip. Sigh. With such results, I really have no idea where can I go.

My parants are extremely disappointed with my performance but I know its inevitable. Which parent does not wish for their child to excel? I guess thats something I gotta accept? There is this really bad feeling trapped in me. I feel awful.

Guess we'll get into different schools eventually, whichever school you're choosing I hope its a choice you're happy about yup. All the best to you, if theres a chance, see you again(: Take extra care of yourself yup(;

030110

2010-01-03T23:46:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year!!!!
Its a little late since its 3rd of jan going to 4th already, but whatever it is HAPPY 2010!

2009 was an important year for everyone of us since its our O level year, now its really over Im extremely glad. But whether or not we've done well / very well, results will only be out next week. So for now lets enjoy ourselves yup. Because if we're to get into jc, the luxury to use the comp / watch teevee till late night will be short last!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO~ LOL

Things have changed pretty much towards the end of year, Ive started a new chapter of my life. I wish I could tell you about it, but it seems a little difficult. Sigh, sometimes when things / people are tearing me apart I feel like letting go of everything I have now. Ah, I need a break. I might appear indifferent on the surface but in fact I hate it when Im being stalked and being told what I should post on my blog and what I should not. I feel so :/ when I cant even talk about my feelings / life in my blog when Im so fed up. Now that my bestfr has gone (somehow), I feel like a mute.

I am tired of being so shallow, I cant seem to say all that I want to my friends.

Thanks my friend, this is really a good place to talk, I mean at least to get whatever I want to say out because I knw I can trust you pretty much like I trust my bestfr. Actually there are some things I hope I can share with a friend like you that day when we met up for dinner but I just couldnt bring myself to break the news to people every now and then. Just need a little more time, but if you happen to find out before I have the chance to let you know personally (since I consider your as one of my good friends), I hope your reaction will be different from my close friends' reactions (which are extremely bad and heartbreaking).

I think my year end of 2009 wasnt very good, I just hope things will start to get better in this new year! HAPPY NEW YEAR ONCE MORE! See you very soon, and I hope you'll do well! I will pray for you. Remember to take good care of yourself and HAVE FUN!

151209

2009-12-15T21:14:00.003+08:00

If you realise, this is the first time we actually chatted for this long after we've broken up. And that feels good, I dont know why but its like Ive found a long lost friend. Hope we'll be able to meet up for chats like this in future. I know it cant happen too often since you need peace most of the time. LOL. If theres anytime you need a someone, Im just a phone call / text away(:

Hope you like the gift from me to you, dont know if you've gotten a new wallet but I hope this will be handy yup(:

Im drained, theres work tomorrow (and thats super :/). Ive written most of the things that I want to say to you in the card, so thanks for tonight(; I'll always think of you as someone important(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!:D

071209

2009-12-07T21:17:00.004+08:00

Has been almost a month since the last time I was here. And it has been really long since the last time we've met too. Life is crazy after work has started, really tired of travelling. :/ So, have you been working?

Guess we would only be able to see each other on results day? Its hard to say, but whenever it is, I hope you've been leading a fulfilling life. Hope you've been enjoying your time during this long and relaxing break.

Your birthday and Christmas is round the corner really hope I'd be able to pass your gift to you yup. (:

Always praying for you. (:

091109

2009-11-09T15:54:00.001+08:00

Hey, all the best for chinese yeap!

Do your best, Im sure you can do it!

171009

2009-10-17T17:46:00.001+08:00

Thanks for everything, (:

Just like ever, you made my final day of school so much better than expected(;

JIAYOU!

151009

2009-10-15T14:57:00.003+08:00

367days, 52.3weeks.

Its amazing how time flies and how things changed, but some things will never be different..

081009

2009-10-08T00:18:00.001+08:00

"Maybe part of loving is learning to let go."

I guess it has always been this way, and right from the start it was supposed to be this way.

"Im holding on but letting go of you."

sixth.

2009-10-06T16:36:00.002+08:00

一路走来并不简单，就差着几个星期了，加油！

其实现在除了加油我也真的不知道该说什么了，虽然心还是会痛但是我会好好专心为来临的考试做好准备。你也要多多加油！

041009

2009-10-04T00:50:00.004+08:00

"Don’t limit yourself. Many people limit themselves to what they think they can do. You can go as far as your mind lets you. What you believe, remember, you can achieve."
- Mary Kay Ash

I like this quote, it really makes me work harder. Its true, dont limit yourself, do your very best! Its 22days to O's and its 13days to graduation day, I'll definitely miss everything about school. And you are gonna be one of the reasons for me to remember about school. Whatever it is all the best and JIAYOU!!!!

"Perhaps, a part of loving is learning to let go"

210909

2009-09-21T10:52:00.003+08:00

"You'll always be one of my favourite person in life."

O's is in a few weeks' time, really gotta make good use of everyday we have to study harder yeah. Im sure you can definitely make it through alright! So have faith in yourself, keep going and never give up.

You can do it, you can.

180909

2009-09-18T21:38:00.003+08:00

Hey you dont look really happy after we get back our phy p2 today? I hope things are fine now yeah. If you're disappointed about your result, be optismistic! Theres another month for us to do our best. Im positive you'll make it, you're capable of doing it, so jiayou! (;

170909

2009-09-17T18:29:00.000+08:00

"At this moment, there are six billion, four hundred seventy million, eight hundred eighteen thousand, six hundred seventy one people in the world.

Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil.

Six billion people in the world, six billion souls.

And sometimes all you need is one."

thirteenth,

2009-09-13T20:56:00.002+08:00

十一个月就这样过去了，今天在巴士上回忆就像电影一样地播放，我才发现其实自己的心理还是很不平衡。。

thirteenth

2009-09-13T20:45:00.001+08:00

"Life is about change. Sometimes it’s painful, sometimes it’s beautiful, but most of the time it’s both."

How true.

100909

2009-09-11T18:00:00.001+08:00

"Faith does not require understanding. Most of us don’t know how the respiratory system works, yet, we still breathe in and out. Most of us have no idea what is going on underneath the hood of our cars, yet, we still drive to work every morning. Most of us don’t have the slightest clue how the internet works, yet, we still rely on it every day to get work done. In everything we do, life requires a little bit of faith."

Keep the faith.

090909

2009-09-09T19:19:00.000+08:00

Always aim high. Work hard and care deeply about what you believe in. When you stumble, keep faith. And when you’re knocked down, get right back up. And never listen to anyone who says you can’t or shouldn’t go on.

-Hilary Clinton

JIAYOU!

080909

2009-09-08T23:22:00.002+08:00

Am I at fault for being worried about a friend? Im at a lost, I dont know why has people change this much. Ive been worried about her since last night and had left countless texts and offline msges for her, yet she doesnt give a damn about it.

Why, ? )':

080909

2009-09-08T01:39:00.004+08:00

It has never occur to me that just a simple decision made by two parties will lead to such unhappiness in others (including me). Ive never thought of me being one of the people who'll be having such negative and selfish thoughts of her. Im really guilty of it.

When I saw her text "I know you'll always be here for me" its as if guilt was eating up my heart. I felt really bad of my complains about her just before things happened. I shouldnt even be doubtful of her in the very first place, Im her pillar of strength, Im supposed to be permanent. It hurts to hear her cry over the phone yet have no ways to make things any better.

Ive never felt this helpless, Ive really ran out of ideas of how I could help. But at least one thing that I can be glad about tonight will definitely be me being (unusually) calm in the midst of trying to salvage things (although was to no avail). I really hope situation will improve, Im not habouring any hopes for things to be absolutely fine any sooner because what has happened really shocked me.

I know you wouldnt give a damn about whats happening in my life / you might never even see this / wouldnt even be paying the least attention to this place you might've long forgotten but this time Im really lost and I need a private place to rant, at least I know, so long as none of us delete this space, this place will be permanent.

Too many things / people are just temporary, Im losing trust in them. Im still glad for your presence, if not for your presence this blog wouldnt have existed. This blog and you will always remain as ppl / place I'll always trust and come back to no matter how much time has passed.
I just hope things are well in your life, and jiayou for the remaining papers + O's.

sixth.

2009-09-06T19:09:00.002+08:00

The saddest part isn't that with each passing day I feel like I need you more, but it's the fact that you don't need me at all. I'll definitely remember those times, every detail we've been through together.

"But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you."
You're Beautiful (James Blunt)

290809

2009-08-29T19:09:00.003+08:00

"But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You're not alone"

You Are Not Alone (Michael Jackson)

220809

2009-08-22T20:09:00.004+08:00

The Quiet World by Jeffrey Mcdaniel

In an effort to get people to look
into each other's eyes more,
and also to appease the mutes,
the government has decided
to allot each person exactly one hundred
and sixty-seven words, per day.

When the phone rings, I put it to my ear
without saying hello. In the restaurant
I point at chicken noodle soup.
I am adjusting well to the new way.

Late at night, I call my long distance lover,
proudly say I only used fifty-nine today.
I saved the rest for you.

When she doesn't respond,
I know she's used up all her words,
so I slowly whisper I love you
thirty-two and a third times.
After that, we just sit on the line
and listen to each other breathe.
***
Isnt this interesting? If we're only allow 167words per day, everything we say would be important, and these words will always be saved for the ones who really matters. If this is the way, life would be quiet but wonderful at the same time.If we're only allow 167words per day, I'll save most of my chances for you, in hopes of having a conversation with you.

200809

2009-08-20T18:48:00.003+08:00

Sigh, Im really tired of all that've happening lately 现在的我，对很多事情已不想理会。和他们的友情，也不一样了。虽然还是有点难过，但我知道我做的是对的。希望接下来的这两个月，我真的能够多多努力，因为我唯一能渴望的就只有考取好成绩了。

你也要加油，就剩下一段日子了，好好努力吧！

Btw, hope that you've read some chinese today(:

150809

2009-08-15T23:54:00.005+08:00

"When you touched my hand for the first time, I wanted nothing more than to hold it forever."
(Sixthaugust-08, 150808)

She just didnt know how much she've hurt me all these while, not a week or two, but for months. It has never occur to me that things of such would happen, and this really makes me doubt friendship. Perhaps, its true that friendship (even bestfriendship) wouldnt last at times, its just a fact that I gotta try to accept.

thirdteenth

2009-08-13T20:51:00.004+08:00

"Just smile and the world will smile along with you."
Happiness is contagious, your smile is too. (:

11days to prelims, 74days to O's, 304days since then.

100809

2009-08-10T17:29:00.003+08:00

"All of the things that I thought were so easy,
just got harder and harder each day."

080809

2009-08-08T16:48:00.003+08:00

有时候，真的不是我不想找她们，但是当我正烦恼，难过时，她们根本没有时间理我。这几天真的想了很多，很怀疑友情到底能维持多久？

这几天真得很难过。

sixth.

2009-08-06T22:22:00.000+08:00

原本告诉自己今天绝对不能哭，谁知在华乐和在医院里还是哭了。真得很不舍得离开华乐，没想到四年就这样过去了。看见妈妈这样，我的心也真的很痛，最后躲进厕所落了泪。

真的累了，一个人的路真的很难走。现在宁愿在这里把藏在心里的话都说出来，至少我知道这里是个秘密，除了我和你应该没有人会找到这里。

Been a year.

"I wish you know whatever thats gonna happen, I'll always be here whenever you need me. When all has gone wrong, when you look around and theres no one left, remember there'll always be me despite the time and distances."

If I could, then I would I'll go wherever you will go
-Wherever you will go (The Calling)

020809

2009-08-02T11:41:00.004+08:00

Hope you'll see this some day when you chance upon this blog again:

In case you're wondering why do I ask you out for Hp movie all of a sudden, its really because theres absolutely no one whos willing to watch it again / is interested in watching. So if you're thinking Ive got some funny motive behind this movie thing (because you might have read what I wrote a few days ago about not being able to get over you), theres really nothing okay. Lol, so yeah, hope everything remains unchange and we're still friends yeah(:

By the way this week is gonna be an extremely short one, but there are lots of tests ahead. So JIAYOU! :D

010809

2009-08-01T00:52:00.001+08:00

I really have no idea why people tend to complicate things really much these days. 没有发生的事，让他们说得象有发生似的。This is atrocious. I dont know if you've heard what others might be saying these days, but whichever the case I really feel its really unfair for people to make such judgement about me when its totally ridiculous. Im really helpless.

原本已经很烦了，加上他们这样我更是不知所措。

280709

2009-07-28T22:57:00.005+08:00

Today one of my best friends made me realise how much time Ive been wasting these days. Truth hurts, but more often than not, its these hurtful words from true friends that finally wake one up.

Whether you've been reading or not, Im not afraid to say its true that Ive not got over you. But Im definitely sure that some things are hard to change. Even if it does, its not now. Im pretty clear of this, I guess thats why Ive been feeling so much better these days.

I think Ive finally understood how you felt months ago when you said you didnt want to hurt me. Im sure it felt bad, really bad in you at that time. Now that Im finally in your shoes, I felt the same way too. I guess in my case its a little worse. I could do really nothing to salvage things from getting worse. To the other party, I cant clear things up like how you did because things arent clear in the very first place.

I really dislike the way Im hurting someone else. Its unintentional, despite how much Im willing to salvage things, I cant. This feeling isnt good at all, especially when theres absolutely no one I can talk to about this matter. It sucks, really.

There are times when I need a breather,
There are times Ive really done my part to focus hard,
but people add on to the pressure each day.

"有时候我真的也很想专心，我真的很想，也很努力了。"

24/07/09

2009-07-26T22:47:00.002+08:00

I have no idea why have things gotta happen every time of this year. Its really tough to hang in there alone.

As I read through those letters I wrote (and intended to give it) to you last year, it really dawned on me that things have changed very much. No doubt, I do miss those times we've had together, but I secretly know things have never change in both of our lives. In your life, its still her. In mine its gonna be those distinctions Im aiming for. Its the final 90days, I'll hang in there. YOU TOO, JIAYOU!

Wonder if you've still been reading, but no matter what I'll still be here.

I'll keep praying for you, jiayou and all the best!
Take good care of yourself yeah(;

thirdteenth

2009-07-13T18:07:00.001+08:00

I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
Blind(Lifehouse)

Been nine months.

110709

2009-07-11T00:33:00.000+08:00

“I love you so much, you don’t even know.”

090709

2009-07-09T18:19:00.003+08:00

Words cant describe what Ive been undergoing these days. Its way too complicated to be stringed into the correct sentences and paragraphs.

"如果有机会，我会让你知道我有多想念你。”

150609

2009-06-15T23:43:00.002+08:00

假期开始了，那你近来一切都还好吧？

要好好的照顾好身子，不要病倒，打球时也要小心点。

140609

2009-06-14T21:42:00.003+08:00

"this time what I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place

this time you burn me with your eyes
you see past all the lies
you take it all away

I've seen it all
and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you

take me away
take me away
I've got nothing left to say
just take me away

I try to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do

don't give up on me yet
don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
but don't let me stay here alone"
Take me away (Lifehouse)
***
As I took the route the both of us used to take with someone else everything seemed so indescribable. Been eight months, but Im sorry to say I still miss you. ):

290509

2009-05-29T22:35:00.004+08:00

Been a really long time since the last time I drop by to post anything here. I doubt you've been reading either, perhaps this place might have been off your memory since a really long time ago, but its okay I guess Ive long accepted the reality?

So much had happened these days, our lives have changed drastically compared to back then when we were together. Theres no way I can deny there are times I think about us and have my heart aching again. Frankly there are times I seriously miss you and who we were when we were together, and hope we'll somehow get back again but I know its never going to work with one-sided effort.

Through these months after our break up I heard alot about you. My heart never fail to break into pieces each time I hear about you, because I know each time I hear about your happenings, I somehow feel we're drifting further and further apart from each other. I bet you've heard alot about me / my friends lately, I just hope you'll know despite the number of people who've come and go in my life, some people will forever be a part of me / my memory even as years and years pass by. And you're one of them.

And keep going for chinese its coming to an end, Im sure you'll make it. Just keep the faith in you and I have confidence that you'll make it through this time.

You might never see this, but I just hope you know, I never want to see you unhappy, and I really hope we can be friends again. I will keep praying for you, always.

090509

2009-05-09T10:14:00.004+08:00

Whatever that has changed, whatever that is gonna happen / had happened, continue to jiayou.

Whatever it is, be happy(:

010509

2009-05-01T00:24:00.000+08:00

Day 200
Remember, I will be there when your life gets hectic and wrong.
I'm always here to help you.
I've been here all along.

280409

2009-04-28T21:53:00.005+08:00

Hope everything went well today! When I was doing the paper I could really hear my heart beats, real loud. But compared to syf, this is wayyyyyyyyyyy better. Whatever it is, I hope everything went well for you and continue to jiayou for the coming phy spa!

There are times in a day I still wish for your presence in my life, but I am still clear of whats most important now. I'll jiayou, really. Whatever is in your mind, jiayou too! (:

270409

2009-04-27T20:29:00.002+08:00

JIAYOU FOR CHEM SPA!

260409

2009-04-26T20:40:00.002+08:00

"Do what you can, with what you have, where you are."
- Theodore Roosevelt

Jiayou we can do it for O's spa! Its been such a long time that spa is coming to an end. I hope its gonna be a fulfilling one, leave no regrets. DO YOUR BEST(:

Many times in a day I still wish for you to be in my life like you've been on my mind. If only you'll be back someday..

250409

2009-04-25T01:21:00.002+08:00

"I dont know why do I bother
Its been so long, too long since the day you left
we've drifted so far and miles apart compared to where we've started
but Ive still been holding on to you and everything related to you.

Now that everything has ended in one careless breath,
Im missing everything I never thought would mean the world to me
Ive still been holding on so tightly to you and everything related to you."

230409

2009-04-23T18:30:00.002+08:00

Chem and Phy Spa are coming in a few days' time. Do jiayou really hard alright! Im sure you'll finally be able to do it for O's! Keep in mind your goals, Im very certain you'll make it through.

Been falling asleep in class these 2 days. I have no idea whats with my bio clock but Ive been really tired lately. Really hope things will turn out better soon, the whole of last week really worn me off I guess. Now that syf is officially over, I guess I'll have more time to spare.

"In a way, I need a change.
But looks like its back to you again, over and over again."

200409

2009-04-20T21:56:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow will be the day.

Please pray for us! :D

190409

2009-04-19T12:52:00.005+08:00

"If anyone can make me fall in love, only you can.
And its you and no one else."
You Can (David Archuleta)

180409

2009-04-18T18:02:00.003+08:00

Now that everything is planned for Prefects investiture and Syf Im told at this moment I must give up on one. And apparently Im expected to give up on pref investiture for syf. Wtf, Ive put in so much effort into planning and Im not given a chance to witness it happening. Its really unfair. And its a pity. If I were to know this is gonna happen I'll never put in this amount of effort that I missed all my recesses and lunch for planning this. All I get in return was only words of comfort from teachers who claimed that they understand how shittish I feel but truely I doubt so lah. I dont even think anyone would ever understand how upset I feel now.

This is definitely gonna affect the way I perform on tues Im sure it will. I dont know why Im crying over this, but I just know its really sucky to miss this significant event. Theres no turning back, if Im missing it theres no second chance to attend it again. Theres no make up to this, and teachers put it to the extent that its no big deal. If they think its really so I see no point in playing my best in seeoh too. Really disappointing.

As days passes by I dont see telling my problems to friends around me is ever gonna help. No one could understand how much Im going through nowadays. What more for whatever that has happened so far I doubt any single one of anyone involved ever thought of how Im gonna feel. The new exco dont feel a thing because they havent been doing their job, and Jess and I have been covering up for them like some busybodies. And needless to say about hanrui and gladys who've done nothing for the investiture. Sigh..

I dont know why but I just feel theres no way to make me feel better. Sigh.. )':

170409

2009-04-17T22:46:00.005+08:00

Today was one of the worst day of the week. Towards the very end of the entire aac prefs were giving all their unpleasing attitude. Which really stressed me out. Its not as if Im going home and Im leaving them there. I was in school still it closes and they were giving me those effing attitude when they were only asked to wait a little more for the guest of honour to leave for debreif. Thats extremely disappointing. And the worst things were my foot hurts like crap and Ive yet eaten anything since like last night. I was really on the verge of a nervous breakdown at that moment and tears were already flowing like it never gonna end. But people still dont understand.

These days, Ive really realised no matter how much effort you've put into things, when its never gonna work theres really no way out. I just dont know how to describe the way I feel now, its a perplex feeling that has been kept in my heart for a long long time. Honestly speaking each time I hear about you my heart really sink. Theres no way out of this, I dont know why. Ive tried to move on like how you did, but I really cant. Im really sick of it affecting me, sometimes I do wish I could give up on everything, every single thing in my life and just . Sigh.

It doesnt matter if you're never gonna read this, I just need someone / some place to listen to me, for me to let it all out. Now at this very moment and period of time Ive lost my pillar of strength, totally. The feeling to be lost, so lost and helpless it really sucks.

thirteenth

2009-04-13T22:34:00.002+08:00

Final 8 days.
Somehow I dont wish for things to end this quickly, its been 4 years. Time flies, it really does. Hope this time Im really cherishing every single moment I have with seeoh and pref board. Because theres no way to repeat it again, I'll work even harder to leave no regrets.

How have you been lately? Though we're always seeing each other in school I feel as we've not seen for long. Ha, but its been half a year, I guess its no longer important anymore. Heard that you've moved, guess it should be good news to you. Wish you well wish you well.

Have been half a year, its really shocking that I still feel that pain every now and then. Ha, thats really (...).

110409

2009-04-11T00:11:00.002+08:00

Things are getting more and more out of hand. These final days before syf and prefects' investiture, just before everything comes to an end goings gets harder than usual. Its as if there are millions of newtonian weight piling on my shoulders. Whether I can pull through its a huge question already, and ironically Im expected to motivate the juniors to do better and endure. Im wondering if those encouragements Ive been giving lately are really working because I dont even feel encouraged myself. If Im not motivated, how can I ever expect the new excos/seeoh juniors to be?

Its a huge disappointment at this point of time. My world is falling apart, I dont want my journey with the prefectorial board and seeoh to end this quickly but Im afraid Im having difficulties to carry on with it. Thats the irony of life. ):

No matter how bad my life has been lately, I still hope you've been leading a happy life with your friends around. I'll continue praying for you, take extra care of yourself and have a happy weekend alright. (:

sixth.

2009-04-06T20:13:00.003+08:00

Never let go of hope. One day you will see that it all has finally come together. What you have always wished for has finally come to be. You will look back and laugh at what has passed, and you will ask yourself, "How did I get through all of that?"

Hope and faith, Im not letting go of.

050409

2009-04-05T20:57:00.004+08:00

Its been quite some time since I last posted anything here. Time flies, its already April. Guess its really time to wake up and work a hundred times harder for O's.

During Friday night's duty I had a chat with one of the juniors, realised that I was kinda blinded at times. And he was right about so many things, and I was really embarrassed about the myopic view I have on things. Really really embarrassing.

也同时发现，有些事真的是看开点好。还是希望你能好好的照顾自己，就算你根本不会把我说的放在心里我还是希望你会照顾好自己。

010409

2009-04-01T22:51:00.003+08:00

Today I was really impressed with what my junior actually said. Totally agree that shes absolutely sure of what she has been doing, conversely as their senior Ive never been sure of what I was doing. Thats really disappointing. Sigh..

Today as Joshua and I were talking I realised many things had changed over these months. Its either me or him, its really quite saddening to lose such a good friend in my life. I guess when we grow up we tend to grow apart too. Thats people, thats life.

Today I was really shocked that you actually went for the run when you've hurt your ankle. Was praying for you for the entire run gladly you were fine after you're back. Really, get well soon!

Today I realised one thing about myself, Im no longer running away from problems as much as in the past. As they told me about everything they thought we'd become I no longer run away from that subject any longer. In fact so many people had ask the same thing for infinite times, yes I cant deny I still feel dejected over 13oct, but at least I know despite feeling affected I was able to face up with reality now. Thats certainly a piece of good news.

I still hope you'll jiayou and if ever you're gonna see this I hope you know I'll never let you stand alone, I'll always be here for you. Just know whenever you need me, I'll be around yeah(: Get well soon!

010409

2009-04-01T17:21:00.001+08:00

Noticed your injury during P.E today. Do take plenty care of yourself alright!

Get well soon!

310309

2009-03-31T21:20:00.000+08:00

"I'm beginning to realise the saddest part isn't that with each passing day I feel like I need you more, but it's the fact that you don't need me anymore."

300309

2009-03-30T21:10:00.003+08:00

"just know no matter what happens, even when someday when we're gonna be apart, I'll still be the one loving you very much alright."
-Sixthaugust; 230908

I guess its safe to say Ive kept to what Ive said so far.

Less than a month to Syf and Pref investiture and Im really glad Im already picking up the momentum to work hard for my commitments in school. Just like ever my family hasnt been really supportive of me being too focus in my commitments, but for this last month Im giving my best shot. I know its gonna be a tough month ahead, but I'll keep going.

No matter how much it hurts hanging on to all the good and bad, I'll try my best.
"I believe I can, and I will try." This is more like me, the old self that Ive lost months and months ago, but Im gonna find it back now. Wo hui jiayou, ni ye yao jia you!

290309

2009-03-29T17:01:00.002+08:00

As she talked to me about you last night, I cant help but kept questioning why. I told myself to stay strong, but I really cant.. )':

I really hope its untrue, but its hard to be.
I guess the pain will never fade, its just how Im gonna cope with it and carry on with life this way.

Perhaps I should be thankful that you were once directed to my life, making it a memorable period of time for me.

280309

2009-03-27T23:42:00.003+08:00

Life gets tough but dont give up!

270309

2009-03-27T00:36:00.008+08:00

Honestly speaking I tried to move ahead and get rid of this heart break. But looks like nothing is working.

Guess I was right that changes are inevitable. When I saw those lines I knew I wasnt being paranoid, I knew. Now that its all gone and lost the only way out to cope with this will be getting used to this heartbreak.

Whatever it is, jiayou and wish you well.. (:

230309

2009-03-23T19:49:00.003+08:00

Start of the new term, this actually reminds us that time is running out and o's is coming. So do jiayou yeah(:

My results are :O, horrifying! Sigh, its quite sad to see my sciences go nine and eight. On a lighter note, there are improvement for 3 subjects. So I guess that works as a form of motivation for me to continue working hard? I hope you'll find your source of motivation / if you've already found it, keep going and jiayou! Dont give up, you can do it!

Realised there are lots of changes in my life lately. I hope it'll do good, really hope it will. Might be really distracted at times, but Im just glad at least for seeoh I was able to concentrate more nowadays. Really wish that it'll be a gold for us this year, pray hard.

So how was your March Holiday? Really hope everything went well and you managed to take good rest during this entire week yeah. Know its mega lame to always ask about how you've been here cause I never get to see your reply, but its the thoughts that matters I guess? Well, jiayou for this term! In no time we'll realise this term will be over and its o's in a blink of an eye. Time flies..

Whichever the case, I hope you've been doing well. And like I've always said jiayou jiayou! More often than not you've got friends who'll be able to provide you with the support whenever you need them, but I'll still be here always praying for you. (: Smile.

210309

2009-03-21T17:07:00.002+08:00

Today, I found nothing to say but sorry too.

Despite feeling guilt all over me, I realise why my heart refuses to listen to him.
At least, I know my heart's still with you even till this moment.

200309

2009-03-20T20:50:00.002+08:00

Everything they say about you, I believe its untrue.
Though it hurts pretty badly, I want to continue believing in you.
So I hope you'll prove them wrong, please do.

After all this while, it is you I have loved.

190309

2009-03-19T20:51:00.002+08:00

Day 158.
Seeoh was relatively productive today. Seeing the growth of our orchestra, secretly Im really touched.

On the other hand, realised the distance between the committee and myself had increased as time passes by. I dont know if Ive been overly deep in thoughts all the while or Ive ran out of topics to share with them. I just feel Ive lost myself over the time.

There are so many things I want to share with close friends around me, but I just cant seem to string them up with the right words. I do wonder if its me that had changed or its just something normal that everyone goes through. I dont know.

Too many things Im uncertain of, too many things had changed over the time, seems like Im always the one whos losing grip of things easily, too easily, Im sick of it. Everything feels like a nightmare, if it really is, I really wish that I'll wake up from it soon.

Anyway, 1/2 of our hol has past, really hope that you've been doing well. I just hope your life has been the opposite of mine, filled with happiness and minimal amount of sadness. If it hasnt been too pleasing, I'll continue to pray for you. And I believe things will eventually turn out fine for you. Keep going, and never give up.

"Im incomplete, with a hole in my heart."

180309

2009-03-18T19:08:00.002+08:00

I will never let you fall
I'll stand by you
Trust that I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

170309

2009-03-17T19:09:00.002+08:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then
And just let 'em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I'm ok, but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could've been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you every where I go
But I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder
Getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret, but I know
If I could do it over
I would trade, give away, show the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken
***

Deep inside, its still hurting.

thirteenth

2009-03-13T18:07:00.004+08:00

Ptm is gonna be disastrous. Just imagine I only let my mum sign chem this morning and she scolded me for 15minutes continuously, there'll be more to undergo when she even look at the results. Furthermore, Chun explaining things to her which makes things even worse. :/

Finally seen the doctor over my chest pain. Glad it has nothing to do with any internal organ but just the joints of my ribcage.

"I don't know why, but every now and then in my life, for no reason at all, I need you. Despite the countless times that we've walked past each other just like strangers, I still need you. And its just so, that out of everyone I've met, it's you I can't forget."

120309

2009-03-12T21:53:00.001+08:00

JIAYOU FOR AMATHS COMMONS(:

P/s congrats on the 6th position for X-country!

090308

2009-03-09T20:31:00.002+08:00

Too much had happened in my life, so many people had entered over the past one month. My heart shattered time and again but I guess no matter how much I do want to forget and start moving on, the pieces will always emerge. So I'll be close behind, no matter how much I have to go through again, I'll be close behind.

Perhaps its fear of letting you/everything related to you go.

Sixth

2009-03-06T20:44:00.003+08:00

Today feels like the night you and I were no longer one.

Today I lost control of my emotions.

Today I lost my directions.

Your world is now upside down because of her, but have you ever notice that Im bearly making through each day because of you? Guess you'll never know/see/hear how hurt I am.

I guess Ive always been only an option to you.

050309

2009-03-05T03:07:00.002+08:00

Been almost a week since Ive posted anything here, been really tired these days especially on Monday when Ive just returned from camp. But glad enough everything is getting back on track now. I guess the camp had somewhat made a turning point in my life, there are still many things really gotta learn from the rest. Especially the way I handle stress.

I guess I'll never be able to thank everyone enough for the birthday surprise and gifts. One of the most happening birthday Ive had so far, really thank you and the rest of our classmates. (:

There are some things people say because they just cant keep it within any longer, some things they say because there is a need to, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves. Its been eon but I still can't help but continue loving you.

250209

2009-02-25T19:48:00.002+08:00

Congrats for topping for phy commons! Glad to know things has been somehow on the right track for you now, keep working hard and keep that confidence in you, Im sure you'll finally make it through with such flying colours too.

Sigh Im feeling so :/ now. I really dislike it when my family has this habit of "ahya you decide it yourself lah" attitude but in the very end they force me to make the decisions that they planned. :/ Sigh..

Know its been damn long, long enough for anyone of us to get started with another chapter of our lives. I thought I could make it through too, I really thought Ive made it through. But after whatever that had happened today, I know my heart has always been with you. I could only be sure when things got serious in the other party's point of view. I really dont wish to hurt him but theres no other way out. I hope he understands it was unintentional. Sigh, will there be a day when we'll even call ourselves friends again? I do miss you alot.

It sucks to have sec3 pref interview on my birthday. Sometimes pref stuff is just so spoiling): Sigh..

Anyway, just hope things will go really well for you still and am really glad you've found the momentum to work hard. Continue to jiayou, Im sure you can do it! (:

220209

2009-02-22T09:47:00.003+08:00

JIAYOU FOR COMMONS(:

You're worth the trouble and you're worth the painand you're worth the worry. If we all went back to another time, I will love you over. I will love you again.

200209

2009-02-20T16:15:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since I see/hear you smile/laugh this way.
Hope everything will remain this way or progress better for you in the coming days, weeks and months(:

190209

2009-02-19T22:15:00.004+08:00

Something happened this morning and Ive really learnt so much from it.

One of my juniors talked to me about quitting pref and seriously speaking listening to what he said I could feel my heart aching. Furthermore seeing his tears roll down his cheeks I really cant help but be supportive of his decisions.

What he said was really true, "nothing will ever be the same". Really really true, once things change, its hard to go back to how things were like in the past. Just hope whatever he plans to do in future he'll be able to excel too. Its really a pity to lose him in pref.

And when he told me how he felt through these days I was so guilty of making my juniors feel that way. He mentioned that it was joy working in the pref, but as time passes by he felt its more of stress and a burden in pref board. I really felt so sad I almost cried. Seriously speaking my heart aches quite a lot now because the excos were the one who made him felt that way. I dont know why but sometimes it just hurts so much to hear someone say he actually feels that all joy with everyone of us has gone.

Its common experiences and memories all of us share. I just hope we'll all be able to remember how much we've learnt from one another and appreciate one another's presence in life. Hope the other excos will be as supportive too..

I guess what this junior said today was really true, no matter how much we dont want to give things up in life, when its really time we gotta do it. Its just part and parcel of life we lose things along the journey of life, I guess its really true. Though it still hurts to face up with reality of everything being over for 4mths, I guess I just gotta learn to understand. Its just the matter of time, I suppose?

Although sometimes I do wish that I could count on you to bring me brighter days, I know I gotta be practical. So I'll really learn to grow up.

Just have thoughts to thank you again for all the wonderful memories you've granted me with. Really appreciate everything alot, I just hope you've been doing well and happy lately. If you're not I really pray for everything to be fine in your life. Keep going, and Ily still.

180209

2009-02-18T18:43:00.003+08:00

Its been quite awhile since the last time I use my computer. At last, its fine.

Commons is coming, JIAYOU!

Ive heard alot, alot has happened. To a certain extent I do hope it'll help me carry on with life a little more, but sadly its not working at all. Anyway, even if you dont see this, I just want to apologise for all the times Ive made you feel :/ and everything. Im really really sorry..

140209

2009-02-14T14:24:00.004+08:00

My computer is officially dead(since yesterday) but gladly ft is kind enough to allow me to use her comp to complete camp stuff.

Work has been piling up like nobody's business, really stressed up lately.

I guess I just need some time to sort things out again so I could get out of this confusion asap. So many people Ive hurt Im really apologetic but I do wonder if people know Im hurt too. Surviving this is a challenge, everyone gets hurt in the very end. Sigh..

Well, just hope you're enjoying your V-Day so far. Have a nice day ahead and take good care of yourself yeah(:

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
(I do wonder if you know how much Ive been hurt so far, really hope you know I still care)

110209

2009-02-11T22:05:00.002+08:00

Finally got the chance to access to internet ever since Im back last night. China trip really worn me off, today was so :/.

So really hope you'll like the gift and, take good care of yourself yeah. I guess it really sucks to fall ill. And I'll never want to fall sick in China anymore. Y'know there was one night when my asthma came and the hospital dont even have what I need to feel better manzxzx. They wanted to put me on some drip which was super scary. But gladly Miss Ngaim and some other people came to save me from the needles lah. Haha. But the story goes on and on with the weird oxygen mask that I was given and stuff like that. Bottomline: never fall ill in LDCs. And alottttt of things happened in China, seen so much of what people really are and stuff like that. Not like Im anybody whos perfect but some really were :O really extremist during this convention. Well, guess I'll blog them out slowly bah, Im still tired from the trip actually and my brother is currently limiting my time in using the computer:/ Sigh.

Alright, even though might not be going to school tmr, shall get some rest now. So I really hope you've still been doing well so far, and continue to jiayou in all you do! You can definitely do better in jc de(;

Jiayou jiayou jiayou! And smile(;

030209

2009-02-03T21:29:00.002+08:00

Flying off to China in hours' time. Guess its gonna be freezing cold there, and we're all gonna look damn fat in our winter wear. Haha. Hmmm, hope you'll take good care of yourself here and jiayou for your tornament!

Continue to keep the momentum going and all the best! You and your teammates can definitely make it through yeah(;

See you when we're back from China, (: One week, hopefully you'll see me in a complete piece uh. (;

There's only a few things I've wanted to hold onto. One being the priceless friendships Ive had in my life and another being every feeling I've ever felt when we held onto each other.

020209

2009-02-02T22:25:00.007+08:00

I dont exactly know whats wrong with me but theres really this perpentual emoness within thats really killing me. )':

Ah.
(Many many times in this 112 days, I still wish for your presence in my life. )': )

310109

2009-01-31T23:12:00.002+08:00

Today was a blast:D Seriously Ive never had so much fun with our class people. Glad that I went today:D And I was super pro I think HAHAHA, got home and actually my brother was all ready to give me an earful but I apologise and I was spared. :D

Glad you were there too and hope you've had great fun with the rest too alright, rest well bah. Its been a long day, take good care of yourself alright(:

Goodnight and happy weekend(;
(Its true that my heart will never forget about you, please take good care of yourself.)

280109

2009-01-28T23:22:00.002+08:00

Just before I go to bed just got the urge to drop by and type an entry.

Am now anticipating the China trip which is coming in a week's time! Nest wednesday the excos and myself will be in freezy China:D Not that I like the freezing weather but just feel good to be going on such a trip.

So, anymore tornaments coming up? Hmmm, no matter when is it just give your best and Im very very sure you and team will be able to make it yeah:D Keep going!

Ha, sometimes I dont really know whats the reason thats keeping me connected to this blog. Though Im the only person blogging ever since a long long time ago, but theres just a very special feeling to this blog. AH, not that Im a psycho. But just feel its (one and only)something unique we have in common.

Hmmm, its getting late. I really really hope you've been doing well in school(though we're in the same class I dont usually hear you or know how have you been). I'll keep praying for you, and JIAYOU yeah(; (#107 day, the feelings just dont fade off, I really hope you know Im still here for you. )

240109

2009-01-24T22:18:00.004+08:00

Today's flag day was so much better than expected. Initially was very very reluctant to do it, but after awhile I got the hang of it and started smiling so much Tongwei realised it and made it a piece of news. But I think if we dont smile how the hell would anyone wanna donate, so the whole smiling issue is fine:D

Really glad to see you smile so much today, can actually sense that you're quite happy during cip today. Keep that smile on your face yeah(: It feels good seeing you smile this much actually:D

Well, hmmm just hope you'll have a joyous cny yeah!

Keep that smile (:

230109

2009-01-23T20:46:00.004+08:00

So how was the match yesterday? Didnt really get any news from anyone, and I was too busy this morning to ask anybody. So yeah, no matter the results I just hope you'll never give up alright(;

Its cny again. AH, actually I really hate cny, theres totally nothing to do!!!!!! Stone stone and ston. Sigh, thats very pathetic I think, I mean for me lah. But well really hope you'll have a very happy cny ahead yeah(; Enjoy this short little break and be prepared to continue to work hard for o's yeah! Anyway, by any chances you're here, commons is on 23feb - 25feb if Im not wrong, so it'll be better if we start studying soon? Its exactly a month before commons. So JIAYOU!

Just keep working harder like what mdm yaw mentioned today, :D JIAYOU! Im sure you can do it!
(Today, as we pass by each other in the walkway, Im definite I really miss you alot. ): I'll do all I can now, which is to pray for your days ahead to be managable and happier. After 102days, Ily still.)

220109

2009-01-22T00:01:00.003+08:00

Its finally Wednesday, okay, thurday(12.01am). I hope I can survive my way through because Im bearly making it each day. ): But I'll jiayou! Have no idea why, but for now theres really motivation for me to work hard till the end of o's! Its strange that I still dont have a "final destination" that I wanna reach, but I'll keep searching. Poly dont seem to be a guaranteed route just yet, needs more assurance in that before really keeping my choice to psychology and community serv with a cut off of 10 or 9 for L1R5 I guess? Not that sure yet either.

And my mum has became so :O lately. Over my results and usual practice of stoning and wasting time. She has alotttttttt to say about it and now shes trying to change my habits. Ah, hope its helping, Im feeling more tired than usual because I must finish all my work before going to sleep or else I'll get an earful the next day. And it totally sucks getting a dress-down early in the morning, I dont like that kinda feeling. Sigh, ):

Its exactly 2weeks before we leave for China! Having a strange feeling in me, no idea why but I just am feeling weirdddddd. But Im quite certain I can bring back alot from there and it'll definitely be a good chance to catch a breather out there in another continent. Just hope April will come soon and pref stuff will eventually be put to a stop for the excos. Though I cant bear to step down, I know I really need time just for books!!!!

Anyway, Kaizhong was talking about bball last morning about how you guys won. So, GREAT JOB! Didnt text to congratulate as Im afraid I'll look toooooo dumb for it. Just know I'm always praying for you and your teammates yeah. So theres another match later eh? Keep going and jiayou alright!

"BECAUSE I BELIEVE I CAN" been really into this phrase lately. Haha, guess its quite motivating, so I hope you'll be motivated after reading uh this post?

Woah Ive said alotttttttttt today. My eyeslids are getting heavier and heavier, soon it'll shut by itself so I guess its time. Goodnight and do remember to take plenty of care of yourself always alright. Even if you havent been be dropping by lately, I'll try my best to find time to update any as and when I can. I believe you'll somehow chance upon this blog anytime in future or even maybe later at night! I dont know when, but I'll keep updating and I'll keep praying for you.

JIAYOU! JIAYOU! JIAYOU!

200109

2009-01-20T19:38:00.004+08:00

Dont really know if you guys have won or anything else, just hope you'll have a good rest and take good care of yourself alright(:

Whatever the result is, just know that you've worked hard enough then its good enough already yeah(; Keep going and jiayou, no matter what, dont give up(:

And Im always here to give you my support yeah, regardless of where you are and what you're doing or who you are with I'll always be here to pray for you. Jiayou!

190109

2009-01-19T11:14:00.003+08:00

I dont know when can I get rid of this sadness within me. Im really tired of this perpetual gloominess.

Sigh.

160109 /2

2009-01-16T23:02:00.004+08:00

Congrats on winning(;

Keep the momentum going alright! Im sure you can definately make it through with all your team mates! :D Jiayou yeah!

Its the last year already, hope you'll enjoy every single training and match with your team and cherish the guys yeah(: Know you've been working very hard, so good job! :D

Shall be off checking out on the camp stuff. :D Remember to always jiayou in all your do alright, and Im always here to give you my support yeah(;

160109

2009-01-16T04:46:00.002+08:00

Just finished all that is needed for me to complete. Ah, am super tired now. Realised being a sec4 is not easy at all, with so much to handle and to cope with, sometimes I do wish we can step down from our commitments and really focus on studies. Now that theres even hardly time for me to blog, I hope you've still been doing well lately yeah. Just remember, no matter how lost you are keep going, I am sure every path leads you to a destination. And I am sure God will always be with us, guiding us through alright. So do jiayou in all you do and believe in yourself alright(:

And jiayou for later's match and do take plenty of care of yourself during the game alright. (:

Thats all for now, its 4.50 in the morning and looks like I dont have to sleep already )': (The sianness is to have phy after school and going for prep for seeoh and pref stuff till 9pm straight and having erhu in the next very morning and tuition in the afternoon. SIGH.)

All the best for the match(;
(my focus in life has been changing every now and then, but you are still as important to me every now and then. I really hope you will take good care of yourself and be a happier person alright)

thirteenth

2009-01-13T18:23:00.003+08:00

Things are getting out of hand, despite the fact that yesterday's release of o's results was supposed to motivate and push us even harder, I am feeling more lost. I mean its like a sudden lost of direction of what I should really do. Sigh.

Well, how have you been lately? Heard from Hj that your tornament is coming already, so do jiayou yeah. Keep going and Im sure you and your team will be able to make it through alright! Besides bball, jiayou for studies too alright. Try to obtain a balance in both so that you wouldnt find it too hard to catch up right after all your preparations for bball okay(:

Hope you've been doing well in all you do and do remember to take extra care of yourself alright(: Jiayou! (somethings, are just hard to forget. It really hurts me, seeing us pass by like strangers)': )

110109

2009-01-11T23:40:00.001+08:00

I am freaking stressed out now. ):

090109

2009-01-09T21:09:00.004+08:00

已经累得不得了了，还是有这么多东西要顾虑到。没想到只不过是开学的第二天我已经快透不过气来了。

Its weekend, FINALLY.

Been deprived of sleep since wed night. Wth thats worse than suffering from insomnia, had to chiong all the ispls and chi compo these 2nights. Finally am only left with ss, like finallayeeeeeee.

Actually I dont really know what Im typing too, cant really read properly now and theres erhu tomorrow in the morning:/ Have yet to practice = DIE.

Hope you've been able to get use to the new school system and sec4 life. Okay, hope you've been dropping by lately, and I guess thats all for today? I am more than tired now. :/

A little to not over you - David Archuleta
"why are you so hard to forget?"

sixth.

2009-01-06T18:37:00.003+08:00

Its been quite a long long while since we even text. Wonder how have you been so far? Though we've been seeing each other in school these days but well..

Still praying for you to really be able to do fine and well in everything you do in your life. And please take plenty of care of yourself yeah(:

Sometimes people just get affected for no exact reason, I have no idea why too. But theres one thing Im sure of which is this is very pathetic of me seriously. Just for no apparent reason it just happen that I'll feel so :/ all over again. I really do want to get out of this on-and-off-anytime emo-state. I just feel so crushed everyday when Im not with people. My thoughts just cant be away from the past? I dont know but sometimes I do take a very little longer time than any other to feel better.

I guess its very extremely true to say the first time one fell in love, its changes her life forever. Really misses everything littlest single tiny thing we used to do together, really miss you alot. I really hope you have been doing well, just know there'll always be me here.

030109

2009-01-03T17:32:00.003+08:00

So how was first day of school? Hope you've had great time with Hj taking the juniors around the school yeah. I know it sucks to be involved in the tour for 3 times a day(including the one with the class) but I guess its at least better than us who've had more than 10tours for the past 1month. Which really make us sickk. Plus yesterday was super hectic especially in the morning when everyone is missing. Glad there were other prefects to help, really glad there are still people who are willing to help.

Really gotta jiayou we're now officially sec4 students! I guess o's is like the biggest thing thats gonna happen in our lives now, do work hard for it alright!

I guess theres no exact to get over things so soon, I hope things will get better soon. Really hope you will be doing well too, jiayou.Just remember, as long as you place your heart in the right places you'll sure see the best results in everything you're focusing on alright. Trust and believe that you can do well.