Now that everything is planned for Prefects investiture and Syf Im told at this moment I must give up on one. And apparently Im expected to give up on pref investiture for syf. Wtf, Ive put in so much effort into planning and Im not given a chance to witness it happening. Its really unfair. And its a pity. If I were to know this is gonna happen I'll never put in this amount of effort that I missed all my recesses and lunch for planning this. All I get in return was only words of comfort from teachers who claimed that they understand how shittish I feel but truely I doubt so lah. I dont even think anyone would ever understand how upset I feel now.

This is definitely gonna affect the way I perform on tues Im sure it will. I dont know why Im crying over this, but I just know its really sucky to miss this significant event. Theres no turning back, if Im missing it theres no second chance to attend it again. Theres no make up to this, and teachers put it to the extent that its no big deal. If they think its really so I see no point in playing my best in seeoh too. Really disappointing.

As days passes by I dont see telling my problems to friends around me is ever gonna help. No one could understand how much Im going through nowadays. What more for whatever that has happened so far I doubt any single one of anyone involved ever thought of how Im gonna feel. The new exco dont feel a thing because they havent been doing their job, and Jess and I have been covering up for them like some busybodies. And needless to say about hanrui and gladys who've done nothing for the investiture. Sigh..






I dont know why but I just feel theres no way to make me feel better. Sigh.. )':