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Wednesday, October 15, 2008
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Dear Buddaye

Wondering if everythings alright over at your side, just like those times when we were together Ive been thinking about you for the entire day. I know I shouldnt be doing this, but I really have no control over it): But Im not worried, because I know things will get better soon.

Anyway just in case you've not recieved theclass relay(because you once said you've never recieved it), we're supposed to bring along a new phy file and a hole puncher tmr. So hope you'll somehow pop by and will get to read this yeah(:

Its been almost a day since Ive last texted you, really wanted to send you a sms asking how you've been doing but whenever I lay my fingers on the keypad, I dont know what to type. Theres so much I would liked to say, that I dont know where I should start from.

And I think I kinda repel people, and that really makes me feel pathetic. Dont know whats wrong with me, but I just feel Im damn pathetic these days.

Guess this place is gonna become my regular dairy? Because Ive somewhat dislike blogging in my public blog because people will start asking about things whenever something is being updated. And I just said, I repel people, so some of my friends are kinda getting annoyed listening to me. In fact, I dont really tell anyone how I feel anymore. Not even ft and kx. No idea why but I feel Im bothering them all the while, so trying hard not to bother them any further. But they're still great friends to be with.

Miss turning that thing on your watch. I think almost everywhere I go, everything reminds me of you. Went to the lib today, was reminded of us going to lib to study but in the end we were scolded for eating waffles. On the train, remembered there was once when we were on this crowded train on our way to bugis, we saw this brothers that thought they were father and son(and the guy actually smiled at you). Went to causeway with ft, was reminded of us walking in the foodcourt almost wanted to sit down for lunch and actually went off after deciding to have lunch. Was on my way home, remember holding your hand feeling so glad Ive got you with me. Past by the bus stop, remembering us waiting for the bus together and I could still recall, everytime when we were at the busstop, I secretly pray for the bus to not come because I wanted to spend more time with you. And now I try not to hug pooh that much anymore because hugging pooh really reminds me of you. I think pooh misses you too.

Anyway remember the puppy you got me on our first date? Its still in good condition with me. So dont worry okay, I'll take good care of it and although thats one of the things that will make me think of you more, I'll still hold it with me everynight. AND, Ive never kicked it down the bed before, amazing :O Ha.

Its Wed today, and 7 now, wonder if you're having tuition today. If you are, jiayou yeah(: I'll continue to pray for you to be a happier person everyday, and each day I pray for us to be back together someday. I really dont mind waiting, because I know no matter how many times I said Im okay, I know Im dying. I really cant live w/o you)':

Alright, guess its time to stop. Take lotsa care of yourself, drink more water and be a happy Benjamin(: JIAYOU! And loving you still. (:

Withmuchlove
Buddaye
P.s. Its exactly 2months to your birthday(: Hope we'll be okay enough for me to celebrate it for you(: